Shattered Memories

Shattered Memories

I think of you often and the tears begin to flow, I wonder how you are and what you are doing, and really wonder why the betrayal, why the silence as if I fell off the earth? No calls, no emails, no postal notes, nothing. What actually happened in your life, to totally dismiss   me from your life. You never gave me the courtesy of an explanation. I feel I deserve, at least, that. Friendship was suppose to be a gathering of hearts, and exchange of joy between you and I. My heart is so heavy, sadness consumes me, you led me to believe and trust in you, led me to believe I was so special in your life. You used   and  abused me by your betrayal and silence. You truly “broke” my heart, yet I still miss you and wonder if you are ok!   Never again, will I ever open my soul to anyone!

Friend???

There ISN'T a day that goes by, that I do not think of you.......wondering..........

 

Why the silence? Why have you disowned(apparently so) the friendship we once had?

I trusted you, I believed in you, you were so different in many ways, for the good of my soul,

 

I have not attempted to contact you, for I have no clue as to where you are, or even if you

wanted to have contact with anyone anymore.

 

NO communications, NO notice of your reasoning as to why the silence.

 

I did NOT deserved your silence......I truly believed you WERE A TRUE FRIEND

You shattered my heart, leaving me even more to never trust another soul on this evil planet.

 

I have truly missed you, and where ever you are today, I sincerely wish you good health, and hope you are happy and content in your life. 

 

 I will always "remember" the "good times" we "HAD", but my heart is broken!!

Prison 18 yrs~~

Tho there were no physical "bars", those first 18 yrs of my life was "prison/abuse", My brother and I were trying to survive in an adult world, barbaric and horrific abuse on a daily basis, until I finally ran away, never to return. Before my brother passed away in 2000, I made him a promise that I would continue our quest/mission, to strive to help others, to protect them from a world of abuse, he had told me so many times, he felt so bad, that he could not protect me, but after all, we were just kids, what could he have done? Tho many years ago, those memories are haunting, wounds that never heal, but I strive to move forward and do what I can, to make my voice heard for the children/others. There are so many shattered lives and broken hearts. Compassion, caring, kindness is always FREE, only requires a bit of "time". To be able to "trust" and "believe" in someone, soothes and calms our souls.

I have so much to be thankful for, tho depression hits me often, to the point of sinking back into isolation, exile/solitude.  

But my "promise" is I will always "pay it foward"    I WILL "NEVER" BE SILENT!!!

FRIEND ?

Friend ?

What I can do or say,
to have you look/communicate my way?
I long for acceptance
just a friendly note or two,
Where are you,
when I call your name? 

Such a busy world
is much to blame,
putting off little things
so important.  

Today's can never be regained
forever lost in this maze.
Where are you, when I call your name?  

I miss you, my dear friend,
always thought our friendship
would never end.

Why the rejection, the silence?
I trusted you with my heart and soul.
I miss you, friend?  

(c)knightgale~2009