Cissy girl @ peace-9-1-24

She was my friend, pal, buddy, and guardian of my pillow, such a loving little girl, she had a good, happy life, will miss her so terribly.

MY CISSY GIRL

1/2/2018-Tho I miss my Nicki girl so very much, I now, have a new toy poodle puppy, I got in last Aug/2017, she is now 6 mos old. The training is never ending, has become one fiesty, stubborn little gal, but so cute & lovely, she's got a long way to go on the commands etc, enjoying her company, tho she can be very trying at times, she helps the fill that emotional void, tho I will always very fondly remember my Nicki girl. So now Cissy girl takes the high road to many adventures 

MY FOREVER BUDDY, FRIEND

8/20/17

My sweet buddy & friend for almost 15 yrs, Got my Nicki girl when she was only about 8-10 wks old, from then on she has been my pal, buddy, friend, literally my shadow in my life. 8/7-Unfortunately she is now in peaceful sleep close by under our banana trees, which I go to view often. Miss her so very much, a loneliness/empty feeling I can never fill this awful void. I so cherish those days/nites she was my loving companion. A small tribute to the life of a beautiful puppy/dog that has greatly enhanced my happiness in this life. Even to venture out to obtain a new puppy, still would never be the same, without my Nicki girl. 

Truly miss her so very much. Our bonding was phenomenal in so many ways, the joy is unexplainable!

BEAUTY OF NATURE

Am just a simple, country, GA gal, have always loved anything to do with nature, in all of mother nature's majesty, scenery & landscapes are so stunningly beautiful, in such an array of displaying gorgeous varieties of color. It is so peacful & serene, so good for my soul & spirit. Love the beauty of such an abundance of flowers everywhere, we indeed have a beautiful, colorful world to enjoy.

IN THE STILLNESS OF EARLY MORN.........

In the stillness of early morn, a beautiful crispiness fills the air, the gentle rustling of leaves, squirrels and birds busy with their day's tasks, the silence and serenity, so peaceful in a world of havoc and death. My mind wonders as I witness the beauty of mother earth, if today, we are closer to peace, and the joy of true friendships to cherish. Thru all the struggles and pains in this life, I am so thankful to be part of your world.

LOVE & PEACE FOR A HAPPY LIFE

Another beautiful day to be ever so thankful, mother earth in all her majesty are scenes to behold and treasure. Am so thankful to be able to spend and share another day with others, hoping their days will be filled with love, peace and promises of a happy life.

HEART IS HAPPY WITH TRUE FRIENDS

The treasure of having true friends is so rare, but one to be forever cherished. Tho we are so busy in our daily lives, a real friend will always talk with you, visit when they can, caring and sharing with each other, and hold you in their hearts for all times. Those in my life, that have made room for me in theirs, is an awesome, happy feeling in my soul, and very dear always. In some people's lives, a real, true friend, is more than some family. Never ignored, but always a "part" of their lives. I am forever grateful for those few that are part of my world. THANK YOU for your caring and sharing.

TRIBUTE TO BILL FARKAS, MY FRIEND

Mr. Bill Farkas, a small tribute to this gentleman, tho he is so busy in his world, he still reaches out to help and support, those less fortunate than himself, most especially "children".
I am happy and honored he is my "friend."

My personal "thank you" for caring and sharing a part of YOUR world for "others"
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"Your communications/friendship is our window of acceptance in such a fast paced world, in honor of a true friendship, never be "too" busy, to always include them in your lives.......it is always "sunshine" thru all the storms.....

( A quote from an imprisoned child)

EVER SO THANKFUL

If we only stopped for a moment, think about our lives so far, the many things we have struggled thru, yet, the things we should/must be ever so thankful. We owe our gratitude to those gone before us, and those who still are fighting to protect our freedom. We will always find others, in worse sets of circumstances than ourselves.

 For this, we must be again, FOREVER THANKFUL.

My best friend

My sweet hubby, my love, my soulmate, my best friend. As we get older, we begin to worry, will I see and have him with me tomorrow. He has had a good life, tho we both have been thru many struggles, like most people. He is a good father, is so very good to all of us. He is so kind and gentle, does NOT like controversy at all. I love him dearly and hope we can still be together for a very long time. He is such a special blessing in my life. He literally saved me from the "pits of hell." His love and kindness is what I never knew or experienced. He is the sole reason my heart still beats!! Love, kindness, compassion is always FREE!!

HAPPY ANIVERSARY-JAN 4/2016-50 YEARS!!!

Dilema of the AGING PROCESS

As we grow older, the more aches and pains of places we never experienced before, and can't understand why we hurt so bad, our energy level seems to decrease with age to the point of feeling so exhausted, yet have not really done any particular exercise or task. I tend to feel bad physically and mentally most of the time. Some days are so difficult and wonder to myself, why am I always up so early each day, I have to get up, because I am in pain so badly. It is a dilema we all face as we get older, leaving us NOT being a happy camper. Am so thankful for yet one more day, but then again it contains the daily pains. I hate going to doctors, for before I leave the office, there will be prescriptions for PILLS. Does one ever realize there is a pill on the market for each and every organ, bone and muscle of our bodies?? I have a "petrified" fear of trying to swallow pills, most especially LARGE pills, fear of getting choked, which I have experienced in the past. Big Pharma will certainly "never" go hungry, making millions of dollars for all of those PILLS.  I question side affects, adverse reactions, contraindications of. Pills are never a cure, it may only mask the real problems of all the aches and pains in life. Some, we just have to live and deal with it, IMO

Flowers for peace

I truly love flowers, it is the only thing that cannot hurt me, and brings me joy and peace

TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE

What could you NOT say to me over 5 years ago, that you now wanna say? NOW trying to contact me, for WHAT??

Seeking Peace for my Soul

I find myself at times, standing at my kitchen window, looking out in deep thoughts, how far I have come in this life, fairly easy compared to the many lonely, horrific nites of my past, and childhood, actually never had a real "childhood", only trying to survive in a "prison setting", tho not behind those real bars, but was liken to a prison world, always so isolated and alone, could not have friends, could not go play with other kids, always work and NO play, that step monster was liken to a gestopo or commandant, always "ordering" us around, like puppets on a string(so to speak). Horrific punishments for the least little "infraction."  Tho many years ago, those horrific memories are always present, beyond my control, and those wounds will never heal, which I am forced to live with until my death. Trusting and believing in anyone does not come easy for me, always questioning one's honesty and integrity. Those few that have allowed me to be a part of their world, I am forever grateful!!!

Peace for my soul is trying to help others have a "better and happy life"

Shattered Memories

Shattered Memories

I think of you often and the tears begin to flow, I wonder how you are and what you are doing, and really wonder why the betrayal, why the silence as if I fell off the earth? No calls, no emails, no postal notes, nothing. What actually happened in your life, to totally dismiss   me from your life. You never gave me the courtesy of an explanation. I feel I deserve, at least, that. Friendship was suppose to be a gathering of hearts, and exchange of joy between you and I. My heart is so heavy, sadness consumes me, you led me to believe and trust in you, led me to believe I was so special in your life. You used   and  abused me by your betrayal and silence. You truly “broke” my heart, yet I still miss you and wonder if you are ok!   Never again, will I ever open my soul to anyone!

Friend???

There ISN'T a day that goes by, that I do not think of you.......wondering..........

 

Why the silence? Why have you disowned(apparently so) the friendship we once had?

I trusted you, I believed in you, you were so different in many ways, for the good of my soul,

 

I have not attempted to contact you, for I have no clue as to where you are, or even if you

wanted to have contact with anyone anymore.

 

NO communications, NO notice of your reasoning as to why the silence.

 

I did NOT deserved your silence......I truly believed you WERE A TRUE FRIEND

You shattered my heart, leaving me even more to never trust another soul on this evil planet.

 

I have truly missed you, and where ever you are today, I sincerely wish you good health, and hope you are happy and content in your life. 

 

 I will always "remember" the "good times" we "HAD", but my heart is broken!!

Prison 18 yrs~~

Tho there were no physical "bars", those first 18 yrs of my life was "prison/abuse", My brother and I were trying to survive in an adult world, barbaric and horrific abuse on a daily basis, until I finally ran away, never to return. Before my brother passed away in 2000, I made him a promise that I would continue our quest/mission, to strive to help others, to protect them from a world of abuse, he had told me so many times, he felt so bad, that he could not protect me, but after all, we were just kids, what could he have done? Tho many years ago, those memories are haunting, wounds that never heal, but I strive to move forward and do what I can, to make my voice heard for the children/others. There are so many shattered lives and broken hearts. Compassion, caring, kindness is always FREE, only requires a bit of "time". To be able to "trust" and "believe" in someone, soothes and calms our souls.

I have so much to be thankful for, tho depression hits me often, to the point of sinking back into isolation, exile/solitude.  

But my "promise" is I will always "pay it foward"    I WILL "NEVER" BE SILENT!!!

FRIEND ?

Friend ?

What I can do or say,
to have you look/communicate my way?
I long for acceptance
just a friendly note or two,
Where are you,
when I call your name? 

Such a busy world
is much to blame,
putting off little things
so important.  

Today's can never be regained
forever lost in this maze.
Where are you, when I call your name?  

I miss you, my dear friend,
always thought our friendship
would never end.

Why the rejection, the silence?
I trusted you with my heart and soul.
I miss you, friend?  

(c)knightgale~2009
  

Living Silence

How could you?

For yrs lead me to believe
But was only deceit,
Lies, fakes, rejection and betrayals
This is a friend?

I think/speak your name,
But again silence, ignored
But if one is not true to themselves,
How can one believe in others.

A public façade, for “they” do not really know you,
They have not experienced, the hurt and heartache
You have caused, yet still claim to be a “friend.”

Life is too short, storms continue to gather,
But a fake friend, is not wanted in my world.

If one’s word is NOT their honor,
Time is of the essence, but gets wasted

All I ever wanted was to be accepted and trust
With my heart, it is not to be,

For now I trust ONLY ME.

Knightgale© 2010

SERENITY

SERENITY

In the stillness of the nite, my eyes are open wide, cannot sleep for hurting inside.
Deep within my soul I weep, for memories there I don't want to keep. Morning coming so near, another day to face I fear. Memories hauting me from my past, will they forever last? Soothing hopes and dreams, a thought of tomorrow, may will take me away from all the sorrow.
With you in mind brings me serenity, a therapy, (if you will)for a troubled soul and a weary heart.

(c)Knightgale 1990