Friend???

There ISN'T a day that goes by, that I do not think of you.......wondering..........

 

Why the silence? Why have you disowned(apparently so) the friendship we once had?

I trusted you, I believed in you, you were so different in many ways, for the good of my soul,

 

I have not attempted to contact you, for I have no clue as to where you are, or even if you

wanted to have contact with anyone anymore.

 

NO communications, NO notice of your reasoning as to why the silence.

 

I did NOT deserved your silence......I truly believed you WERE A TRUE FRIEND

You shattered my heart, leaving me even more to never trust another soul on this evil planet.

 

I have truly missed you, and where ever you are today, I sincerely wish you good health, and hope you are happy and content in your life. 

 

 I will always "remember" the "good times" we "HAD", but my heart is broken!!

Prison 18 yrs~~

Tho there were no physical "bars", those first 18 yrs of my life was "prison/abuse", My brother and I were trying to survive in an adult world, barbaric and horrific abuse on a daily basis, until I finally ran away, never to return. Before my brother passed away in 2000, I made him a promise that I would continue our quest/mission, to strive to help others, to protect them from a world of abuse, he had told me so many times, he felt so bad, that he could not protect me, but after all, we were just kids, what could he have done? Tho many years ago, those memories are haunting, wounds that never heal, but I strive to move forward and do what I can, to make my voice heard for the children/others. There are so many shattered lives and broken hearts. Compassion, caring, kindness is always FREE, only requires a bit of "time". To be able to "trust" and "believe" in someone, soothes and calms our souls.

I have so much to be thankful for, tho depression hits me often, to the point of sinking back into isolation, exile/solitude.  

But my "promise" is I will always "pay it foward"    I WILL "NEVER" BE SILENT!!!

FRIEND ?

Friend ?

What I can do or say,
to have you look/communicate my way?
I long for acceptance
just a friendly note or two,
Where are you,
when I call your name? 

Such a busy world
is much to blame,
putting off little things
so important.  

Today's can never be regained
forever lost in this maze.
Where are you, when I call your name?  

I miss you, my dear friend,
always thought our friendship
would never end.

Why the rejection, the silence?
I trusted you with my heart and soul.
I miss you, friend?  

(c)knightgale~2009
  

Living Silence

How could you?

For yrs lead me to believe
But was only deceit,
Lies, fakes, rejection and betrayals
This is a friend?

I think/speak your name,
But again silence, ignored
But if one is not true to themselves,
How can one believe in others.

A public façade, for “they” do not really know you,
They have not experienced, the hurt and heartache
You have caused, yet still claim to be a “friend.”

Life is too short, storms continue to gather,
But a fake friend, is not wanted in my world.

If one’s word is NOT their honor,
Time is of the essence, but gets wasted

All I ever wanted was to be accepted and trust
With my heart, it is not to be,

For now I trust ONLY ME.

Knightgale© 2010

SERENITY

SERENITY

In the stillness of the nite, my eyes are open wide, cannot sleep for hurting inside.
Deep within my soul I weep, for memories there I don't want to keep. Morning coming so near, another day to face I fear. Memories hauting me from my past, will they forever last? Soothing hopes and dreams, a thought of tomorrow, may will take me away from all the sorrow.
With you in mind brings me serenity, a therapy, (if you will)for a troubled soul and a weary heart.

(c)Knightgale 1990

Sunshine thru the storms

Your communications/friendship is our window of acceptance in such a fast paced world, in honor of a true friendship, never be "too" busy, to always include them in your lives.......it is always "sunshine" thru all the storms.....

( A quote from an imprisoned child)

(c)Knightgale~1995

PEACEFUL SERENITY

Peaceful Serenity

I long for a place of peace and laughter
is that too much I seek after?
Am so lonely and in despair,
can I find someone who does care?

I weep my tears at nite,
yearning for someone to hold me tight.
Yet in the morning hour,
I still find myself, with life so sour.

I seek love and laughter
a place of peace and serenity
Will there ever been such a place
where I can feel so safe?

My heart is so heavy, I yearn for a true friend,
with so many to talk to,
yet am still alone in the end.

Give me each day, O God, strength to endure,
with your love so pure.

I will soon find my own way
hopefully with a friend
I can finally say,
I have found that peace and serenity,
to last me thru eternity.

Knightgale (c)2002